I’m going to work on my procrastination problem… maybe tomorrow.

I’m sure I’m not the worst procrastinator in the world but I’m pretty damn bad. I have always envied all the people who could jump right up and get things taken care of that didn’t absolutely need to be taken care of within the next hour or so. I think if I had that ability then I could improve almost every aspect of my life and not feel like I’m treading water so damn much. I could actually feel like I’ve gotten something accomplished. I think my problem is that I am one of those people that absolutely needs decompression time where I do absolutely nothing or I fart around with some pointless hobby for a bit for my overall mental well being. I just can’t handle it when I have to do one thing after another and always have something on my plate for every second of my waking hours for any length of time. I’m just not wired that way I suppose. I think in my head I think that if I didn’t procrastinate then I would always have something that I had to do right here, right now and that’s what holds me back from even getting started. The problem is that in that situation I don’t end up doing anything at all but still have the feeling that I have all this stuff to do, because it’s absolutely true, because nothing got done. If I had just gotten it all taken care of in the first place I could just sit back and look around and truthfully say to myself, “I don’t have a damn thing to take care of right now.” and relax instead of what I normally do which is fret about all the things I need to do and still not get anything done and feel like I’ve wasted my life away. It’s something I need to work on… maybe tomorrow.

I hate our landlords. They didn’t pay the bill to get the toilet fixed and now plumbers are calling us wanting money. I’m sure as hell not paying it, it’s not my bill, goddamn deadbeats. I wonder how that will come back to bite us in the ass. Probably get taken to court for that or they will try putting something on my credit report even though it’s not my bill. I can’t wait until we can move and get the hell out of this house. Now it might not be until the first of December until we can get into the place in Roca now. Who knows who will own the house we are in now by that time, I think they had to refile stuff in whatever county Ogallala is in so that will take time to chug through the system. We are paid up until the first of November but I’m not going to pay any more rent to anyone unless they ask for it and they are the owner of the house. Maybe we can get away with a free month in the confusion of the foreclosure and use that money for the deposit on the new place.

Big game tonight against South Dakota State… yawn. I’m not getting the pay per view for this one. Jessica and I could actually GO to the game and see it in person for less than the cost of watching it on TV. Hell, we could probably find tickets for free if we spent any time at all looking around. Too bad, it’s a night game and we could actually watch it on TV live instead of recording it and pretending it’s live later. I predict a spectacular showing by the 3rd, 4th, and 5th team scrubs led by homegrown Nebraska boys like walk on freshman quarterback Ron Kellogg who will pass for 550 yards and 6 touchdowns, and walk on freshman fullback Mitch Hron who will rush for 420 yards and 5 touchdowns… all on fullback dives up the middle. Bet you didn’t know that Nebraska still had fullbacks on the roster did you? Meh, I’ll listen to it on the internet. My score prediction… 63-0. Go Big Red!